Angsty and Disorderly

 

Whew. I never thought I’d have the chance to update again. I’ve been extremely busy these past few days. Anyway, I got a story to share.

 

Yesterday, I was planning on resting na lang. E kaso, may nangungulit.  Na miss lang siguro ako. Hahaha! Just kidding! I went to a friend’s house. Nanggulo lang naman ng rehearsal. Hahaha! my favorite past-time, manggulo. Hehehe!

 
After that, Jiselle and I had dinner. Then we decided to talk some more. So, we got in a cab. Punta sana ng WOW. But pagdating sa Roxas Blvd, we changed our minds. Baywalk na lang. Walang kasawaan.
 
We got there at around 12 am. Had coffee sa café adriatico. Naki-jam si Jiselle, kapal ng mukha, jOwk! Hahaha! astig nga eh, biglang dumami tao. They got drawn sa café Ad nang narinig ang voice ni Jiselle. Yikes, siren ka ba Je? Hahaha!
 
When Jiselle was onstage, I got a chance to look around. Nice view. Ganda ng dagat. So placid. Parang walang posibleng mangyaring masama. Pero, parang lang.
 
Then at around 2, lumipat naman kami Big Mama’s. sa tapat ng Malate church. Wala lang. We had coffee lang. Then usap uli. Ang saya!
 
Sarap talaga ng gabi. I wished that night won’t end. Time flies when you’re with good company. We talked about anything, and everything, and nothing of relevance. (ano daw?) hahaha!
 
Anyway, when I mentioned the sea kay Jiselle, aba! Naaliw ata, isulat ko daw yung sinasabi ko. tapos dudugtungan niya. and this, my friends, ang kinalabasan. Enjoy.
 
 
I – Café Adriatico
 
Ang ikli ng gabi
Tahimik ang dagat
Maraming tao
Pero hindi pa rin sapat
 
Merong musika
Naririnig ng tenga
Pero musika nga ba?
O isang simpleng kanta?
 
Kausap ka
May hihilingin pa ba?
Mas mahabang panahon
Puwede ba?
 
Kung uuwi naman ng Bahay
Ako’y mag-iisa
Makikinig na lang ng musika
Habang ang isip ko’y nasa iyo pa
 
May dumaang bata
Siya’y nakadilaw
Nanakbo na lang bigla
Hindi na abot ng aking tanaw
 
Ang ilaw ay kulay berde
Pati ang dahon ng niyog
Ako’y nalilito
Damdamin ba’y nahuhulog?
 
Di mo ba naiintindihan
Na ikaw ang dahilan
Kaya’t ang tulang ito
Ay aking nasimulan
 
Alam kong hindi mo pansin
Dahil hindi ko maamin
Ikaw ba’y nagbubulag-bulagan
O sadyang manhid ka lang?
 
II – Big Mama’s
 
May unggoy sa puno
May payong na pula’t itim
May krus na umiilaw
Ito ba’y nagbibigay liwanag sa dilim?
 
Malamig na ang kape
Pero hindi pa rin ubos
May dumaang ale
Binigyan ko ng limos
 
May kalapit kaming pulis
Apat sila at nag e-english pa
Akala ko naman kung ano pinaguusapan
Kalokohan lang pala
 
May dumaan na namang ale
Nagbebenta ng manika
Nakakaaliw sana
Ngunit ito pa rin ay balewala
 
May dalawang babae
Nasa kalapit mesa
May kausap na mga lalaki
Sila’y nagpapakilala
 
May dumating na metro aide
Suot ay dilaw at pula
May hawak na walis
Siyempre, ano pa nga ba?
 
May taxing walang sakay
Malamang, ang metro’y patay
Wala lang, sinabi ko lang
Nang ito’y madugtungan
 
Matatapos na ang dilim
Isip koy’ nasa iyo pa rin
Kung makatulog man ng mahimbing
Sana ikaw ang makita ko pag gising
 
May lumapit na lalaki
Siya’y naka uniporme
Ako’y biglang nakilala
Biglang nanglibre ng kape
 
Pag dating ng kape
Tinimpla ko agad
Kahit hindi pa naman inaantok
Isip ko’y lumilipad
 
Ang langit ay nagkukulay asul na
Init ng haring araw, malapit na madama
Ang hotdog at kape, nakahain na
Heto ako, mag aalmusal mag-isa
 
May mama, suot ay puti
Siya’y nagwawalis
Wala na kasi ang metro aide
Kanina pa umalis
 
Sabi ni kuya, lumipat na daw kami ng mesa
Dahil daw ito’y gagamitin ni lito atienza
Ang coffee mate at asukal, kinuha na
Kasabay pa ng kalembang ng kampana
 
Ngayon sa baywalk ay papunta
Ang sunrise, nais makita
Naupo, nag-antay, biglang naalala
Dito pala ay sunset, ay tanga!
 
Ako’y naglalakad pabalik
Papuntang Mabini para sumakay ng dyip
Ang ilong ko’y aking pinitik
Dahil ang mga mata ko’y kusang pumipikit
 
Papuntang divisoria, ako’y sumakay
Daan pauwi sa aking Bahay
Kung saan ang higaan ko’y nag-aantay
Upang ang katawan ko’y humimlay
 
Ang tulang ito’y malapit na matapos
Ngunit ang tubig ay patuloy na umaagos
Tulad ng puso kong sa iyo nakagapos
Na nagmamahal ng tapat at lubos
 
Kung nabasa ninyo lahat ang nilalaman
Naipahiwatig ba ang aking nararamdaman?
Marahil, hindi ninyo maintindihan
Ngunit sa nagsulat nito, ito’y makahulugan.
 
 
 

Hmm. I haven’t updated for a couple of days. I’ve been pretty busy. And that means I got a lot to share with you guys…

I’ll start with the Himig concert.

I wouldn’t say it was a failure - but it was disappointing. The banners, tickets, and posters say the concert was supposed to start at 6. It started at around 8pm. When will the Filipino time be accurate? It would only appear that they’re lying to the people. And when they opened the gate, only half of the expected crowd was there. Half of them went home because the concert won’t start on time.

And to top it all of, as Kitchie was performing, a couple of gatecrashers suddenly attacked the marshals. Poor marshals, they were just keeping the order in the concert. One guy got a swollen eye, a couple of guys had bruises in their arms, and one very unlucky kid, who just went to the concert without his parents consent, got whacked in the head, don’t worry, he’s still alive. After performing 3 songs ( I’m not sure) Kitchie left. (sayang, crush ko pa naman siya… hehehe!)

If you’re wondering how I got all this information, let me tell you this. I was there; I was one of the first-aiders. I even got a closed wound injury at my right arm. To hell with those gatecrashers!!! Getting to watch the concert for free isn’t enough for them. They have to ruin it pa!

Anyway, kahit ganon ang nangyari, I had fun. I got to know a lot more about a friend of mine. The other first aiders kept teasing me, they thought gf ko daw. Sorry guys, but you’re all wrong. I’m really glad I convinced her into watching the concert. I hope she feels the same way.. ( hi jiselle.. close na tayo nyan ahh!! Hehehe! Jiselle’s the original Kitchie fanatic, she lent me her same ground album. And I must say, WALANG SAYANG!!! )

TO JE: I hope you’re really free ( you know what I mean ). And I’m extremely happy for you. It was really nice walking with you sa oval. Kahit paikot-ikot tayo (walking on same ground? Hehe!) under the starlit sky, with the gentle breeze.. (naalala ko tuloy kanta ni marlon..)

THEME SONG NG RCY (tono ng huwag na huwag)

CHORUS:

Ooh, ooh, ooh

Don’t you ever, ever tell me,
You didn’t feel the love we had.
The love that was willing
To give you your independency.

BRIDGE:

And in the night,
Who will sway you by the swing?
And in the morning,
The gentle breeze will touch you tenderly.

That was from my Tuesday night. And now, back to my story na.

I got home at around 2? I’m not really sure. Feels good to rest after performing rigorous exercises. (hehehe! ano na naman kaya pinagsasasabi ko?) I woke up at around 8. My mom was turning the house upside - down, she was looking for safety pins. Hahaha!! I’m not joking.

I slept again and woke up at around 12pm. I gulped a cup of coffee, checked for e-mails, added a couple of people to my friends list in YM, chatted with AjiE for a while (beh! You’re back to work na.. hehehe!!) and then went to class. It was a pretty interesting day.

Nabuhay si Adjeng (ilang days kasing hindi pumasok), though she looks pretty tired. Wawa naman. Si Aree naman, still the same, hyper talaga lagi! Im gonna miss your walk while saying your prayer. Tska yung flying mo. Hahahaha!!! Si Adrian naman, ayaw papilit tumugtog ng through the fire. Hehehe!! Then I got to know another classmate, si Daphne. Buti na lang nakausap ko siya before nag end ang theory class! Armi was late! Hehehe! (what did you do with your hair nga pala? Hehehe! Anyway, masarap talaga tumambay sa corridor, lalo na pag ang sub ay nasa loob na ng room. Hehehe!! Glen, sana may natutunan ka kahit nasa gitna ka naming ni Aree. Hehehe! Si kit, as usual, my food. Vicki, why are you hiding at the back? Nag you-know-what na naman ba? Hmm. Sa class, we discussed the majors, minor, diminished, augmented thingies.. Ayaw pa nga sana mag pauwi ni prof. Hehehe!

Hmm. I went home agad. I was still tired eh. I slept early. That was my Wednesday.

Thursday was a bit weird. We were supposed to have our band rehearsals kaso, hindi natuloy. I won’t elaborate na. Marlon and I just jammed until 11pmsa house. Then we talked about old band members. That was it. Ganda ng Snow on the Sahara talaga!

Hmm. I guess, that’s it na. I’ll update as soon as I can na lang uli.

Gee! I got your attention na ba? Hehehe! Just kidding.

But I still think valentine’s is a fad. I mean, you can spend quality time with the one you care about even when it’s not valentines. Right? It’s just pure commercialism.

You can give roses to someone you like just because it’s a Wednesday, or a Tuesday, or whatever day.

You can send a card just because a song on the radio reminded you of them, or the night you were on a club, or the song playing while you’re out on your first date to tell them how you miss being with them.

You can spend a night at a resort out of town, camp out and stay up till dawn, tell them they mean so much to you as the sun is peeking from the mountains while holding them close, as if you never want to let go. I can go on forever with this kind of thing but all I’m saying is that you can express your feelings not only on valentine’s day.

You can just look at them in the eye, hold their hand, brush stray locks from their face and tell them how much you care about them, how much you appreciate them, how much they mean to you, how much you love them, anywhere. You can tell them how they changed your world. Just a tip, don’t use too much figures of speech, that’s overkill.

Right. Now, who say’s I’m not a romantic?

Hahaha! Maybe I’m not, that’s why I’m stuck here at the house without a date for tonight watching my mom dance to a Ciara song. Or maybe I’m not into the romance thing, anymore. Lots of maybe’s, diba?

Romance right now is the last thing on my mind. Really. Walang magtataas ng kilay!!! A lot of my friends don’t really believe me. But it’s true. (does that mean ganon ako kalala?) I kinda made a new year’s resolution. No more careers muna for as long as I can hold the fort. I just hope kayanin ko. Hehehe! It’s hard work. Hehehe!

Some say ako daw yung type na hindi nawawalan. Hmm. I haven’t noticed that. That’s just an image lang, siguro. But that’s not what I want to project po ah. But well, when I find someone that I really really like, I hang with them, spend time with them, know them. Then if it works, then go, if it doesn’t, then I move on. That’s just it, really. Basta, I’m not one of those people that need to be with someone talaga.

Honestly, I’m just trying to get over someone talaga. That’s the main reason. Okey friends ah, now you know. That’s it. Those are the factors that prevent me from you-know-what. Hehehe! (pinapahirapan pa sarili no?)

As I was saying over and over again, when you fall, you fall.

Anyway, change topic na nga lang. Get busy na tugtog. Wala lang. I really like this song talaga. Lalo na pag milkshake. Hehehe! Yun lang nakakapatayo saken. Hmm. I just thought you’d like to now.

Okay, so much for my introduction. Hahaha! About my day naman. I had a normal day. I woke up at nine, went to the bank to deposit my sister’s allowance, then had coffee at my dad’s office, then said hi to my friends sa video city on my way home. I got home at around 12pm. I ate lunch, then took a bath (kelangan pa ba talagang sabihin yon? Haha!), then got dressed (take note: nakapambahay akong pumasok kanina, since it’s valentines, naka blue ako. Blue ang valentines ko. Haha!), then went to class. When I got there, there are only 3 people there (Adrian, Glen, hindi ko alam name niya.. ). Glen and I chatted for a while, talked about what I missed last meeting, which was nothing since the prof was late.

Then Armi arrived. We talked about first aiding, joining environmental groups like greenpeace, organic farming, veggie meats (eew..) no to GMO’s, and about rainbow warrior ng Greenpeace (remember the ship in Armageddon? ung sa start ng movie, with protestors onboard as bruce willis is playing golf, yeah, that’s it.). I kinda tried to recruit them into volunteering. The world needs more volunteers. You don’t get paid, but it surely gives you a great feeling.

Hey, if you want to volunteer, just leave a message, alright? I’m looking for child life program volunteers. In the child life program, you stay on a hospital, pediatric ward specifically. Since it’s a pediatric ward, you relate with kids from 0 – 19 yrs old. You just have to entertain them, read books, play with them, the works. Just make them feel normal. That’s it. You don’t have to be there regularly.

Back to class: we had a substitute teacher. I didn’t get her name though. Anyway, she talked about church modes (Ionian, dorian… blah blah blah… ), relative minors, parallel minors, melodic minors, and harmonic minors ( yeah, I know.. I was clueless at first too… ). I even joked to Armi about Alicia keys’ first album, since it was “Songs from A minor”. It could also be called “Songs from the Ionian Mode”. The sub was pretty eager! I had a bit difficulty in the scales a bit, but I know it’ll sink in later.

After class, I was about to go home when I saw Allora (classmate uli..) at the gate. We chatted for a while about nothing of relevance. Then her mom asked me to hitch with them (hahaha! Hitchhiker daw ba… Her mom was pretty nice. And a miracle happened. Allora was pretty silent. It was a bit shocking. What happened to the rowdy Allora? Hahaha! (baka mabatukan ako.. hehe!)

Anyway, I got home a bit after dark. After several minutes of fumbling for my keys at my very organized bag (with a hint of sarcasm… and munching cheese popcorn, I got in. I forgot to leave the lights on. Thank gawd I didn’t break anything. My mom arrived a few minutes later. She bought dinner sa Greenwich. Then we talked about what happened in our lives today.

Wow, it’s long. I guess I better cut this story short. I’m now in front of the PC, it’s 10:00 on my watch, and I’m about to sleep. Got rehearsals tomorrow! * sigh *

Goodnight everyone. Salamat sa pagtiyaga.

Peace.

Oh well, I had a very interesting day today. I woke up at around 11am, got a call from my aunt. She asked me to stay at her house for a couple of hours (talk about house-sitting and maid-sitting). I went there at around 2pm, brought my guitar along, and met the new maid, though I can’t remember her name now. I just call her manang. I think she’s a bit lonely coz the moment my auntie’s car left the garage, she started talking – non-stop..

I mean that’s the first time we’ve met. I was just stumped coz she started ranting about how her mother mistreats her, (that’s bad….) and how her husband mistreats her,(that’s bad too..) and how unfortunate life was for her on me like i was an old friend.. How could such injustice exist in the world?! Makes me sad. And there I was, thinking how things weren’t going easy for me. Makes me feel blessed, I must say. Simple things like that makes you change your perspective in the world.

And after about an hour of chatting, she started mopping the floor. That gave me time for myself. I went to the music room and started playing my guitar while texting a friend (hi AJiE!!!!). manang called me for merienda after an hour. With hurting fingertips, I went to the kitchen. Damn! I really love skippy! La lang. Share ko lang.. hehehe! Anyway, manang started ranting again. She said she used to be a manicurist so I asked her to clean my nails na lang.. hehehe! She finished cleaning my nails at around 6.

Damn! I never thought na nakapagod ang tumunganga the whole day! Whew! After the cleaning session, I went back to the music room and started playing my guitar again.. (sorry manang… and after what seemed like eternity, I sat at the most cushy couch I could find and turned the tv on, my fave show was on ETC.. One Tree Hill!!!! Hilary Burton rocks!!! La lang.. you’ve seen her on mtv na rin.. on trl.. ung mga ganon. Anyway, after that lipat na ng station..

Ano nga ba yung movie na andon c Rachel mcAdams? Hmm.. tska c Rob and yung girl sa scary movie. Basta, anyway.. I watched that movie til my aunt arrived at around 9. thank gawd, I can go home na. (though malapit lang house naming don.. hehe!)

And now, I’m home na, in front of the PC.. im about to hit the bed na. Got to rest kasi may duty pa tomorrow sa Red Cross. Im praying the first aiders’ creed.. (sana maraming casualties… hehehe!) Just kidding! I hope everybody will be safe and sound tomorrow!

Damn. My head’s killing me!!! Would somebody just cut it off?! Argh. It’s driving me nuts.

Anyway, it’s been 2 days since my last confession. Just kidding! I haven’t had a confession for year. I don’t know why. I don’t even have an urge to go and hear mass. Hmm. I wonder why. Not even sure if I have faith. Why am I even wondering why? Would somebody help me have my faith back? It’s not that I don’t give a damn. It’s just that there are so many things that need most of my time and attention. What, are you going to launch into a full-blown assault on me? Who am I even talking to? And why am I even defending myself to no one?

See? My stupid head’s driving me nuts. Argh!!!!

Anyway, I went out at around 8 pm, that was a Tuesday night, and got home at around 3 yesterday. I didn’t go to class. I was too tired and sleepy. And besides, I’m gonna be late. That was Wednesday. And now, it’s Thursday, and I haven’t done anything productive. Well, I wrote something, lacks melody though. Argh! Stupid head. I can’t think clearly… I think I need some coffee.

I’m going to sleep. No more coffees tonight.

Goodnight.